Destiny (Open!)

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i got up after her and wrapped an arm around her waist as we walked

I frowned but kissed her back, i couldn't not to. I loved her and she was my weakness. I pulled away after a few seconds and smiled warmly at her " call me if you need anything" i pressed my lips to her forehead " good night" i took a bag i could carry on my back and went out the house. I would come back tomorrow and get the rest of my stuff. I drove to the house i was going to stay in.

"Good night." I whispered as I watched him leave. I went into my room and got myself ready for a nice long hot bubble bath. I haven't taken one in a long time and I knew it was time for a nice long one.

I missed Jared being away from him for hours made me restless but i had to end this, i wouldn't be in peace if i didn't. The plan so far was going well i caved in everything Nate said or did but it was all pretense i little while longer i keept reminding myself.

I played soft music and lite a few candles and placed them around the bathroom sink before shutting the lights and stripping my clothes. I stepped into the water and began relaxing.

(( skip time? A week later? Jared hasn't heard of helen and james is nowhere to be found?))

((sounds good to me))

I still haven't heard of her and i'm loosing hope. Elisa was playing with Austin and i smiled how glued together these two were.-jared

It was a rough night, i drunk my ass out and woke up in my roomie's bed. I sighed heavily ant went to my room before she woke up.

I hadnt been able to end him every time it seemed close Nate ended up doing something else. Which made get more and more stressed out, i had to finish him by tonight i tought.

I was in my room just drawing lost I thought. I haven't heard or seen james since he left that night & I was beginning to think he was never coming back. A part of me hoped he did but another part wish he didn't, but of course I wanted nothing in the world than to be with him again, if only a few minutes. I couldn't sit here anymore an do nothing. I grabbed my jacket and my phone and headed down the steps and seen Jared in the living room watching Austin and Elisa play with each other. Those two were attached at the hip. Where ever one go the other follows. "I'll be back." I announced heading for the front door.

((I miss this rp, are we going to continue it?))

((it's all on Rima. I want to!))

((sry guys!))

I took a hot shower and got dressed than went to the living room looking online for a job.~james

"Be careful" i smiled and PLAYED with austin and elisa

I sat in the room Nate had provided me with. Weeks have passed and im still here, but tonight will be my last I thought. I was going to kill him.

I left the house without saying anything else. I just needed the fresh air to clear my mind. James has been gone and have yet to try and call or see me. I was really beginning to get worried. What if he did go back home and just though it'd be easier if he didn't tell me. Yeah that's it, he just thought not saying good bye would be the easiest good bye. "oh who am I kidding, I hurt him badly and he wants nothing to do with me." I said to myself as tears began to fall from my eyes.

i found an add about an IT job "just what i need" i grabbed my keys and walked out. it wasn't too far so i went on foot. i got there applied and left. i was wandering in the neighborhood when i spotted a familiar figure, i kept looking till i saw her face, she was crying. i frowned and walked toward her "Are you okay?"


I took my phone and texted helen "Are you ok? i really need to see you i'm losing it Helen!"

I jumped slightly at the voice. I quickly wiped the tears away, but couldn't o anything about my racing heart. "uh, yeah I'm fine." I said softly not looking at him. I wanted nothing more than to be in his arms where he tells me it'll all get better. But the truth was it wouldn't, not until I get over my feelings for Jared. He's with Helen and there's no changing that. I just have to learn to live on my own.

I was starting to go crazy in here without Jared. All I thought of was of seeing and being with him. I grabbed my phone ready to call him to let him know I was coming home when I saw he had texted "Im fine, im coming home tonight, I miss you and im sorry for leaving you alone. I'll there before midnight" I hit send walking to the kitchen were Nate was.

I sat next to ashley and took her hand " you can't fool me Ash, what's wrong? Did someone hurt you?"- james

I read the text and smiled, i was happy i was going to see her again.

I just shook my head still not looking at him. "nothing, and no one hurt me, I promise." I looked down at our hands and my heart continued thumping against my chest. Many nights I laid awake thinking of our I would react if I ever saw him again, yet here I am and not one of those things are happening.

I took back my hand " than why are you crying? I don't like seeing you crying... I can't imagine that you are in pain and i can't do anything about it"

I went up to Nate he was smiling he's probably thinking he wont I thought. If only he knew. I sat next to him pretending to be listening to him speak.

I just shook my head finally looking at him. "I really miss you, and I can't help but think that you've already moved on. And that you've probably moved on because I've hurt you." I said truthfully as another tear fell from my eyes.

i sighed as i looked away. i had certainly not moved on, my feelings for her were stronger than before but i just couldn't say it. "Ash, i hurt myself, it wasn't your fault. i knew how much you love jared and even with that i still tried to take his place. i thought i could help you forget him and get you to love me, its not your fault" ~james

I went to helen's house and waited her there since i didn't know what time she would be back/

I shook my head and wiped away the tear. "no its my fault, I knew things with me and Jared will never be the same, yet I kept that dream alive under false hope. Only keeping you around because I felt comfortable around you." I said and finally looked back at him. "But since you left I had time to really think about things and I realized that it's time I let that dream go and move on. He has Helen now and I have to accept that. Its time I grow up and stop depending on everyone to make me happy. I have to focus on me and Austin."

i nodded "I understand... i'll be there if you and Austin ever need me. you can always count on me as your friend"