first everything but that!

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She was my first kiss!
First make out!
First girl I’ve seen naked!
First well not that because of that night!

She should have been my first everything but they took that from us, from her. We had it set up her 16th birthday right befor emy 17th birthday, we were going to take it all the way!  We both wanted it, we were both ready.  But my mind being as sick as it is I had to tie her hands and just as I was going to pull out my cock, I got hit in the head and when I woke I hated what I saw. She couldn’t escape because I tied her hands.  I won’t blame her if she doesn’t forgive me.  After I got loose I killed one of the men but the other got away.

Her parents took her 4 days after the policed questioned her and they never looked back I never got to say good bye.  So what happens when I see her 10 years later.

I smiled and we continued on she would get anxious and I would distract her with soemething else to pile in the cart so we ended up with a lot that we didn’t really need. But it was progress because by the end I didn’t have to distract her anymore. Once home I started marinating the steaks. “So the grocery store how did you like it?”

“It was ok, I know I panicked a couple times but I think I’ll be better on the next trip.” I smiled. “I want to take that camp trip We always panned but never went”

My eyes got wide. “Oh, um okay.” I didn’t know if she could handle that let alone myself. “Um maybe we can invite my brother and his family.” The more people the less something can happen right.

“Yeah that would be fun, I’m sure they would like that.” I agreed. “You’ll have to mention it sometime and see what they think.” I could tel he didn’t want to be alone and that worried me, did he think something would happen again?

J nodded. “Cool, but you know if you don’t want them to I don’t have to ask it was just a thought.” I didn’t want her to know how I felt about camping now. I mean we never made it to the campsite because of what happened.

“No it’s ok. We don’t have to go alone.” It was stupid, I don’t know why I even thought we could go. “I mean, maybe some other time. If things work out with us.”

J looked at her. “If things work out with us? What makes you think they won’t?” I hated that it made me upset that she said that.

You might get sick of me.” I shrugged. “I don’t know, maybe you’ll want someone who doesn’t freak out at the grocery store.”

I shook my head. “Nope! I want the girl who freaks out at the grocery store and the one who picks on me as much as I pick on her, I want the girl I fell for all those years ago! I want the girl who is standing right in front of me forever and always.”

“Are you proposing? That sounds like a proposal.” I teased, and stepped closer to put my arms around his neck “I want you too. I’m many ways.” I winked, and kissed his cheek then went back to making a salad

I laughed. “Lily baby when I propose youbwill know! And I will propose! I won’t let you get away again.” She was cute as she walked away thinking she had the last words like she always use to but I had her with what I said

I rolled my eyes shaking my head “that’s if I say yes.” I laughed, wondering in a few years would he still mean that. “And I might not even have those kids. People have sexless marriages all the time”

Laughing. “You’ll want those kids Nd the sex!” I said wondering if she ever would. I didn’t care I mean I have went this long what’s some more years I walke duo behind her. “And if you don’t then I’m okay with that too!”

“ I want a lot with you, but sex scares me.” I felt bad. “I don’t know how to cope with getting over the anxiety regarding getting naked and actually not panicking someone won’t come in again.”

I wrappe smy arms around. “It’s okay lily if we get to that point I will make sure nothing happens and I won’t do anything you don’t want he’ll ill let you have all control.” I wouldn’t like giving up control but for her I would she needs to try to get over it. “But we need to work our way to that and we can take all the time you need.”

“Yeah, I don’t know if I’ll be able to have my arms bound let alone be in a room with an unlocked door.” I hated I was so afraid. “I want to work to that, and I would be maybe will to shower with you.”

I smiled. “Shower with me now then!” I said testing to see what she would say or do. I thought she would say something like now? Oh um well...

“Ok.” I blurted. Then I blushed hard “umm oh well we just showered tho...” I said and then bit my lip “but ok. I will shower with you.”

I smiled and took her hand in mine and took us to my shower it was big enough to give her space. “Your going to see me naked babe!”

That’s when my eyes grew wide. I forgot about the whole let’s get naked part. “Aren’t we wearing bathers?” I teased turning the bathroom light on. “And you’re about to see me naked again.” I just let go, and soon took my clothing off and stepped into the shower

I just stared at her in awe.  “Fucking hell!”  How was I not suppose to react to her . I adjusted my cock in my pants “are you sure about this?”

I was under the water when I heard him speak “what?” I asked. “Are you coming in? Or too scared?” I winked

I shook my head. “I asked if you were sure.” I took my shirt off and then my pants and boxers I walked and and watched her my cock was already hard and really wanting to slid inside her. I was going to have to jerk off.

“Why is it-“ I cleared my throat. I mean I know what a penis looks like, but his... oh my god I’ve never seen him this naked before. “So umm, yeah. Good. You look like.” I blushed as I realised I was staring for a long time and quickly looked away.

I chuckled. “I look like what lily?” I still hadn’t moved I was a little afraid that I would pounce on her and scare her so I just stood there watching her in amazing she was absolutely gorgeous.