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I never thought he would I was just letting him in more. I was so scared. He laid me down and I was almost asleep right away so tired.

I looked at Mav and his dirty face. "Yeah I think that would be a good idea and in the summer the boys can help more too." I just wanted him to relax a little.

"yeah but they'll be on holidays, I don't wanna work them too hard." I smiled picking up mav once he began to cry "someone needs a bath, and a change."

I stood "let me and you go relax." I said taking Mav. He worked to hard to have to worry about bathing and changing our boy.

"don't be too long." I yawned, heading off to our room and climbing into bed. It wasn't long and I rolled over, dozing off

As I got mav to bed and went to our room I saw archer passed out. "Well so much for making another baby." I said out loud not meaning too. I went got undressed and then through his shirt on to go to bed.

I'd heard what she said and rolled over "whats that meant to mean?" I asked sitting up more.

Shit what the hell do I do or say now. I couldn't look at him. "I'm just confused and your tired. I'm sorry." I said in a small voice. He says he wants another child but never seems to really want me.

I sat up more, looking at her "no, what did you mean by what you just said?" I asked again.

I sighed. "Your not going to just let it go are you?" He shook his head. "I don't know it's just you say you want another child but lately it seems as if you don't want me. I mean I wanted you the other night after what I thought was amazing sex but you didn't want me and then there now and a few other times. I just don't feel like I'm good enough for you."

I looked at her feeling terrible. "I love you and I never want you to think you're not needed.." I sighed sitting up and running my hand through my hair "I'm working 14 hour days and coming home exhausted. Last night, I didn't have the energy to go again and just wanted to hold you." I reached over taking her hand "I'm sorry I'm not like the men you read about, but I'm stressed and exhausted. I didn't know you wanted to start trying tonight, you'd said you wanted to see the doctor first."

Damn I felt worse now. "I'm just being stupid I'm fine and it's okay I know you work hard." I just wanted to sleep now. He was tired and I was tired. "Let's just sleep tonight and I guess I'll make a appointment or something."

"why would you think I don't want you?" I ignored her and kept her close "you drive me crazy baby, I couldn't ever not want you. I love your mouth on me, and my cock inside you." I hated that she felt this way

I sighed. "Like I said I'm just being stupid." I felt like it anyways. "I'm just, I'm just new too all this you know." I wasn't use to anyone loving me or showing me they love me and I never see it so maybe that is what it is.

"I do love you." I laid back with her close to me. "I'm sorry, this weekend I promise to have you sore and unable to walk each night." I grinned, kissing her gently.

I sighed. "You don't need to promise that, I'm sorry I'm just not sue to all this. And I don't want you to be like the men in the books, I want you to be you." I worried he would work himself to death.

"Im trying darlin. I really am." I sighed, pulling her closer and kissing her forehead. "those books are ridiculous. My father used to hate them." I chuckled, stroking her hair.

I laughed. "That aren't that bad. And you don't need to try. I love you for you. I just worry." I leaned closer and kissed his chest.

"I know you do. You shouldn't worry, I'm going to be ok." I assured her, my eyes feeling heavy again as my kids began to close starting to doze off. "I love you;"

I sighed as I heard his even breaths. I really hope so. I thought as I watched him sleep before dozing off. Later in the middle of the night I heard Mav screaming. I got up to check on him and decided to bring him back to bed with me.